Popular Post Tilla Posted March 1 Popular Post Share Posted March 1 100 days ago I was loading my family up to drive across Mississippi for Thanksgiving. It was at least a 5 hour drive but would probably take closer to 8 hours with bathroom breaks, meals, etc. Perfect time to quit! I white knuckled it through that drive and through the next several days as I visited family. The distraction of the holiday actually did help but by the end of it I could feel myself slipping. When I returned home it got worse, I had free time and I was alone, I constantly thought about it. About 2 weeks prior, my dad had called me and broke the news that he had mouth cancer. He believed that I had been quit for years but I actually had a dip in while we were talking. It was a horrible feeling. I was scared for him and disgusted at myself. Did I quit right then? Nope. I continued ninja dipping, sneaking and swallowing. The pressure was building though. I’m 41 with two sons, do I really want to risk leaving them early because I want to dip? Am I dumb enough to do the exact same thing that is going to disfigure my dad? Do I really want to continue lying to everyone I know? After white knuckling for 5ish days I did an internet search for “quit smoking”. I found a few places that had helpful information but it wasn’t good enough. I googled “quit dipping”, I found a Reddit link and eventually the site. I signed up and posted scroll the next day. Reading alone was a big help those first few weeks. The Graveyard was like this historical document of failure, pointing out all the ways to not be (I still managed to be those exact ways at times). Intros helped me put stories with names. Centurion speeches gave me a good model. Little things pushed me forward. Positivity, bitching, ass kicking, it all helped. It all added up to 100 days. I learned so much. Unbelievably, I learned so much about myself. Those lessons would have all bounced right off of me if I didn’t believe in the brotherhood and probably would have never been taught to me if we didn’t believe in accountability. B+A=Q. This is the way that works, not my dumbass way. Finally, fuck nicotine, fuck big tobacco, fuck nasty ass dipping, fuck sneaking around lying. I’m quit as fuck! 7 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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