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My name is Ace, I’m 37, I live outside of Philadelphia, I’m married with 2 kids and I’m an executive at a fortune 50 company. I can also now say that I’m a former tobacco user. I haven’t used tobacco for 100 days. This is the longest my body has been without nicotine in 23 years. From age 14 to 35 I used nicotine every day, all day. I would pack small dips but that was only so I could have one in every waking second of my life. I told myself that packing small ones meant I didn’t have a problem or that it wasn’t that bad for me. The people that threw in the huge horseshoes and ripped through 2 cans a day had the problem, not me. At age 35, I was starting to think about quitting. I was starting to notice the physical and mental effects from using for 21 years. Physically, my mouth was constantly dried out and disgusting. I was getting sores and constantly going to the dentist to make sure this or that spot wasn’t cancer. My jaw hurt, my complexion was terrible, and I had awful heart burn and slept poorly. Mentally I was starting to lose it as well. I could no longer concentrate at work or be present with my family. My entire life revolved around me using dip and that was all that mattered to me. I started to think this was no way to go through life. I felt like a piece of shit, I was literally a slave to tobacco. At 35 I was ready to quit but had no idea how. I started stringing some days together without tobacco, but as soon as I started feeling better and my mouth would heal a bit I’d go back to using. The fact that I could go a week or more without using dip was proof enough for me that I could “quit” whenever I wanted so what was the incremental harm of one more can? But it was never one more can, it was always one more. After a year of this nonsense I decided to buckle down,and on the day after the super bowl in 2017 I vowed to never buy another can. This time, I started to search the internet for help on how to do it. I found some resources and enough horror stories to keep me away from tobacco for 90 days. The problem though, was that I was completely miserable the entire 90 days. I viewed quitting as losing something. It was something I was doing because I HAD to not because I wanted to. I felt sorry for myself, I felt like I was losing my independence, losing my youth and losing life as I knew it. I romanticized about using dip and not surprisingly, I went back to it on day 91. It would be another year until I would make another serious attempt at quitting. It was June 18th, 2018 and I was starting a day 1 for the about the 100th time in 2 years. I plowed through the first few weeks and was miserable. Sensing I was about to give in, I made a last-ditch effort and google searched “quitting dip” and found this site. I couldn’t stop reading the content and I spent hours and hours reading the site that first day and by the end of the day I had forgotten that I was thinking of caving earlier. The next day I created an account and posted my day 13 on the plebe scroll. I can’t say I knew exactly why I decided to post but I think it was some combination of luck, divine intervention and desperation. My first two weeks posting were critical to my quit. I posted a lot of dumb shit and the process of the other members correcting me and calling me out on my addict speak is what taught me how to quit. It wasn’t instant though. It took some time for me to get it. I almost left the site a few times in those first few weeks but luckily posts from the members made it click for me. The post was “get with the program” and a reminder that I had spent 23 of 37 years alive doing dip. At this moment it sunk it that “my way” didn’t work and I didn’t know fucking shit about quitting tobacco and that I needed to listen and learn if I was going to be successful. Most importantly I realized I wasn’t special, I wasn’t a victim, I wasn’t better than anyone, I had done this to myself and I had the power to get myself out of it. The thought of not being special was really unsettling in the beginning but it has now become my internal mantra, I find myself saying it every day, “I’m not special”. I’m not sure why, but it feels so liberating and empowering to say that. I’d like to figure out why that is at some point but not today. Today I’m going to celebrate being quit. It’s incredible how much my life has changed in just 100 days. Every aspect of my life has improved since quitting and it’s not just the obvious stuff directly related to dip like better breath and sleep. After quitting dip, I feel like anything is possible, I’m in control of my life from here on out. Quitting is a state of mind and way of life that I can apply to anything else I’m dealing with. That’s why the site has threads dedicated to just about anything else you could be dealing with because these principles are universal. I wanted to quit dip because I wanted to change my life and it has done just that. There are other methods for quitting dip but I truly feel this is the one that allows you to change your life in the process. In closing, I want to thank the members of this site (current and former) for every post you’ve ever put on here. I’ve read so many of them and have learned so much about myself and how to quit. Without you all, I’d be doing this alone, no one else in my life really gives a shit about me quitting. Don’t get me wrong, people in my life are happy that I quit but they weren’t going lose sleep over it if I didn’t quit. Lastly, a special thanks to those that posted on my intro during this first 100 days and ripped me a new one when I needed it. That’s what changed my mindset and I’m very grateful you took the time to help me. Looking forward to staying quit for life and helping others do the same. Ace. P.S. I’m not special but that doesn’t mean life without tobacco isn’t awesome.

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Ace 100. Congrats Varn