Been thinking on what I would write for quite a while as my day 100 approached. I am not much of a writer or a public speaker at all ( thank God its not that) so this will probably be shorter than most and I apologize to whomever might be offended by its length. I'm not going to write about my past on how I dipped or got started. All of that can be found in my intro.
So, I've been cold turkey Quit for just over 100 days now. Can everyone do that? No, because not everyone is the same.
I've been wanting to quit for a number of years for the simple reason that I knew it wasn't good for me and especially how much the amount I was doing escalated over the last couple years. I never did anything about it because I liked it too much or so I thought. I never got sick and tired or fed up like alot of of people do probably because everyone is not the same.
What happened was I got a little scare from my dentist about needing some gum surgery and upon hearing that I thought wow, this is my ticket out.
I thought it would be very difficult to quit so I figured I google quit dip and this site popped up. I had no idea what I was doing as I clicked on a few things but I managed to post one short sentence-- I wanna quit ! I never thought anything would come of it or that I'd ever be back to the site. The next day I got pm'd by a future Quit brother saying " I guess you didn't make day 1" and that kind of pissed me off because I had made it through the day and I was proud as fuck that I did. I messaged him back saying that I did make it through a whole day without the shit. He told me how and when you should post if I really wanted to quit. The next morning I got my computer savvy brain smoking, posted my day 2 and I was off.
I found it easier than expected to stay away from it probably just because not everyone is the same. I started to chew on different things like gum, seeds, pen caps, electrical tape and toothpicks. Around 10 days in I read on the site about 'fake'. As unbelievable as it sounds, I have never heard of such a thing so I googled and purchased a couple different kinds. I felt a little strange using it because of the similarity. I spoke to some guys here and was told as long as its tobacco/nicotine free which it was, I was good.
I didn't experience things most did like cold sweats, rages, sleepless nights or dip dreams (yet). Probably just because not everyone is the same. Irritability?? YES I'm pretty sure I experienced that and my wife is definitely sure. I have apologized to her many times for it.
All I know is for the last 100+ days I get up and I post. If I get an urge during the day and it still does happen occasionally, I think of my promise on scroll and I just don't. If I did I'd be going back on my word and that would make me a liar. I may be alot of things but a liar I am not.
I never would of thought that a promise on a website to people I've never met or even spoke to would ever work but for all of us , it does ..... Why does it ?... because in this case--- We are all the same !
I would like to thank those who started this site and those here who go the extra mile and take the time to help others with their addiction. You know who you are and there are many of you. To the guys who seem to have been here since the beginning of time , my gratitude for your experiences and wisdom on being Quit, it is immensely appreciated !... Thank you all..... QUIT with you all !
--Jock0
