NotSloth Posted November 9, 2020 Posted November 9, 2020 (edited) Before I quit dipping, like everyone else, I was always worried about where my dip was and how much I had left. I had a database of every gas station that had [redacted brand name*] , and never went without it. I eventually “wised up”, and started ordering two 5-can logs that I picked up every Monday. So, I was dipping at least 10 tins a week, but would often have to pick up one or two to get me through the weekend. I really never said to myself that I am going to quit dipping someday. I thought it was my identity, and I was in such denial, that I convinced myself that all of the health risks (e.g., cancer, hypertension, etc.) were just propaganda and it would be extremely unlikely to ever happen to me. In fact, I would jokingly tell friends and families that these warnings were just “old wives tales”. I WAS SICK. As an addict, I thought of dip as one of my only true friends. I am a recovering alcoholic of 9 years, and I always thought of dip as the only release I had, since I no longer drank or smoked weed. But like I said, I was dipping around the clock, so a dip never took the edge off or gave me a release anymore. It was just something I had to do. It was a cure to nicotine withdrawal, which it caused, and nothing else. Fast forward to just before I quit dipping, I was diabetic and starting to have minor circulation issues. Nothing major, but definitely a direct result of the nicotine. I had lied to my doctor (and dentist) about using nicotine my whole life, but finally fessed up. The doctor made it absolutely clear, that I was at way higher risk of hypertension, loss of circulation, etc. because I was diabetic and I absolutely had to quit dipping . For some reason, I finally had a moment of clarity and said “what the fuck am I doing with this shit?” I at least had the ability to be honest and admit that I could never be someone who could have one dip a day, so I knew continuing to dip meant continuing with 10+ tins a week. I found this site looking for methods to quit dipping or nicotine cessation. I knew quitting dip cold turkey was for me because I knew I’d never successfully quit doing nicotine replacement or slowly weening off. I remember being extremely slammed at work, but had read enough in the guest sections to know that no time was going to be a good time. So I decided that I was going to make this cold turkey quit memorable. The day I quit dipping, I threw out a couple of tins, logged on to this GREAT site, and stayed QUIT ever since. Man, those first 3-4 days are pretty fucking brutal. I knew they would be. But, if I got through day 1, I had to get through day 2. There was a lot of comfort knowing all the QUITTERS here went through what I did and lived to tell about it. Shit, by day 3 sometimes I was in withdrawal so bad I thought I was hallucinating and could barely open an email, but since I got through days 1 and 2, I told myself I’d be a pussy piece of shit if I caved on day 3. I kept with my mantra: “I am an ex-dipper who used to dip”. Day 4 sucked, but it was easier than day 3. By the next week, I was only having cravings during certain periods of the day. One day, the cravings finally went away. I think doing this cold turkey was psychologically the best way to do it, because I got to experience the pain of withdrawal to let me know how big of an addict I was. I can always reflect at how happy I am today that I am no longer a dipper. But what I really reflect on is that how sad it was I was so addicted and in such denial (and SELFISH). I am such a slob, that my desk drawer at work still has dip shavings in it because I never cleaned it out. Serves as a reminder to constantly having stained pants, always needing a spitter, and spitting on my dick while taking a shit one time (or two) because I didn’t have a spitter. That’s all history.. The above was written by a member of Quitting Dip. If you are looking for a support group, all of the members here quit dipping using the same process, through the accountability offered by this website, and quitting dipping cold turkey. *Brand names were edited out of this when being reposted, because fuck all if we're going to advertise for some tobacco company. Edited November 9, 2020 by NotJamesGordon
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