NotSloth Posted November 9, 2020 Share Posted November 9, 2020 (edited) Before I quit dipping, like everyone else, I was always worried about where my dip was and how much I had left. I had a database of every gas station that had [redacted brand name*] , and never went without it. I eventually “wised up”, and started ordering two 5-can logs that I picked up every Monday. So, I was dipping at least 10 tins a week, but would often have to pick up one or two to get me through the weekend. I really never said to myself that I am going to quit dipping someday. I thought it was my identity, and I was in such denial, that I convinced myself that all of the health risks (e.g., cancer, hypertension, etc.) were just propaganda and it would be extremely unlikely to ever happen to me. In fact, I would jokingly tell friends and families that these warnings were just “old wives tales”. I WAS SICK. As an addict, I thought of dip as one of my only true friends. I am a recovering alcoholic of 9 years, and I always thought of dip as the only release I had, since I no longer drank or smoked weed. But like I said, I was dipping around the clock, so a dip never took the edge off or gave me a release anymore. It was just something I had to do. It was a cure to nicotine withdrawal, which it caused, and nothing else. Fast forward to just before I quit dipping, I was diabetic and starting to have minor circulation issues. Nothing major, but definitely a direct result of the nicotine. I had lied to my doctor (and dentist) about using nicotine my whole life, but finally fessed up. The doctor made it absolutely clear, that I was at way higher risk of hypertension, loss of circulation, etc. because I was diabetic and I absolutely had to quit dipping . For some reason, I finally had a moment of clarity and said “what the fuck am I doing with this shit?” I at least had the ability to be honest and admit that I could never be someone who could have one dip a day, so I knew continuing to dip meant continuing with 10+ tins a week. I found this site looking for methods to quit dipping or nicotine cessation. I knew quitting dip cold turkey was for me because I knew I’d never successfully quit doing nicotine replacement or slowly weening off. I remember being extremely slammed at work, but had read enough in the guest sections to know that no time was going to be a good time. So I decided that I was going to make this cold turkey quit memorable. The day I quit dipping, I threw out a couple of tins, logged on to this GREAT site, and stayed QUIT ever since. Man, those first 3-4 days are pretty fucking brutal. I knew they would be. But, if I got through day 1, I had to get through day 2. There was a lot of comfort knowing all the QUITTERS here went through what I did and lived to tell about it. Shit, by day 3 sometimes I was in withdrawal so bad I thought I was hallucinating and could barely open an email, but since I got through days 1 and 2, I told myself I’d be a pussy piece of shit if I caved on day 3. I kept with my mantra: “I am an ex-dipper who used to dip”. Day 4 sucked, but it was easier than day 3. By the next week, I was only having cravings during certain periods of the day. One day, the cravings finally went away. I think doing this cold turkey was psychologically the best way to do it, because I got to experience the pain of withdrawal to let me know how big of an addict I was. I can always reflect at how happy I am today that I am no longer a dipper. But what I really reflect on is that how sad it was I was so addicted and in such denial (and SELFISH). I am such a slob, that my desk drawer at work still has dip shavings in it because I never cleaned it out. Serves as a reminder to constantly having stained pants, always needing a spitter, and spitting on my dick while taking a shit one time (or two) because I didn’t have a spitter. That’s all history.. The above was written by a member of Quitting Dip. If you are looking for a support group, all of the members here quit dipping using the same process, through the accountability offered by this website, and quitting dipping cold turkey. *Brand names were edited out of this when being reposted, because fuck all if we're going to advertise for some tobacco company. Edited November 9, 2020 by NotJamesGordon Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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