I spent 6 hours in the car today driving, alone. 376 days quit and I reminisced about all the things that I loath about nicotine and dip, that would always happen. The car was the perfect place today to do this (recording voice messages) as that was the users chair where I’d daily shoot up with nicotine.
I have more than 10 but I’ll limit it here...
10. Getting to know the c-store dealer and acting like he was my friend
9. The boiling frustration and overall pissed off state of finding a c-store that didn’t carry or have any Kodiak (and seldom would I branch out to something else in dire desperation but occasionally that would happen and I’d get even more aggravated it didn’t give me the right fix)
8. No spitter no problem. I’m in the car so I’ll shove the remaining half a can in my face and use the can as a spitter till it overflows after the third dollop of bear splurge.
7. Constant soar throat and paranoia of a lump (the clarity without this constant lingering is indescribable)
6. I went to the dentist regularly twice a year and the hygienist every time would say “are you a coffee drinker there’s some staining down here.” The dentist never said anything, he was hoping I’d be paying for his lake house.
5. Nicotine overdose, you know where you puke 🤢 it would happen a few times a year. Just chasing that whatever and the drug gets ahead of your skis.
4. Getting caught by coworker while ninja loading up a fat dip at work ... and completely playing it off like nothing just happened and he didn’t ever say anything...still not sure he saw, I used to ninja dip the fake at work too...that would have been funny if I’d got caught doing that, no really it’s nicotine free it’s ok!
3. Food getting caught not in my teeth but in all the pockets all around my mouth particularly the upper where I’d keep one all day.
2. Waking from up with My face under a pool of brown drool on the freshly changed sheets. I frantically try to change the sheets again while the wife says “you stained the sheets again didn’t you”
1. Thinking how am I going to de jack after this, without my wife knowing, while I’m in the middle of coitus.
